Ever had feelings so strongly twards someone that it physically hurt to even see them with anyone else? I know he has a girlfriend and I’m trying so hard to get over these feelings but I just can’t. I can feel it inside myself that he is my Soulmate the one I’m ment to be with. I might not be able to have him right now but I feel like the universe is not letting me get over him for some reason. Any advice? I’m so stuck on him that I check his social media(atleast the ones he uses) every single day. It hurts but I just have to see that hes ok and doing atleast descent. The things hes said and his way of being such an egotistical person gives me life. I was looking at his pictures last night while high af on the weedles and the feelings I have for him were amplified times 1000 I can’t do this anymore. I was going to be in one of my friends music videos and he went but I couldent get a ride. Is this a sign that I should stop? I dont know help me.
This morning I woke up still thinking about the one person I’ve been thinking of every single day for the past couple of months. When I wake up with this person in my head my whole heart just lights up. This person has got to be the single most interesting, funny, handsome and just an overall awesome human being. I don’t think I’ve ever been this in love with someone in my entire life. I cry when I think of all the things that have been wrongly done towards this person and I want to be there for them I want to be with them they’re the only one I have ever truly cried for because I sincerely in my heart am hurt that something like that would ever come out of the mind of someone as amazing as them. Recently I realized Life’s too short to live in your comfort zone( surprise surprise) and that the people you love can be taken away from you at any moment so live your life to the fullest with no regrets. When I started this blog I truly I was about to kill myself but I didn’t and now I think I might have found the person I would like to spend the rest of my life working towards getting. I think I might have found my soulmate. I feel as though I might actually try for once instead of always second-guessing myself. I will achieve happiness one day no matter how long it takes but if it’s with you I think I’m already there.
This whole blog post is kind of a mess but my emotions are strong and this is the only way I can express that.
So there’s this guy that I think likes me and so I wanted to talk to him. So I went on my snapchat and added him and he asked who it was when he knew for a fact that it was me because he does this every time. So just for the heck of it I told him my name that he already knew. Not two minutes later he sends me a picture of him completely naked but only showing his abs. He then says he’s going to take a shower so I just stopped talking to him Cus I thought he was taking a shower. One minute later he sends me a text saying that I hate him which I don’t (though he can be annoying sometimes). Then he sends me another picture of him again saying he’s going to take a shower and this time the picture is a full body one with his hands over his genitalia. I literally screamed like seriously I almost fell out of my chair. After I was done freaking out I told him to go take a shower so he did. When he was done he sent me a message asking me what I wanted to ask him and I told him I wasn’t the one who asked that but he insisted I did and so I said never mind and he blocked me. ARE YOU SERIOUS! I should be blocking you, you fucking pervert like holy shit I didn’t say or do anything wrong. I’m so done with boys. God damn God damn.
-P.s. Sorry I haven’t written in a long time I’ll try to do more😄