Sunday Thoughts 1

Maybe i should just accept that people will talk about me just for existing or breathing even though i havent done anything to anyone. I have not said one rude word to anyone and they all asume that i eithier have an atittude,that im crabby or just overall a rude person. You know what ill just keep being me as the wise onion boy always says at the end of his videos. Judge me for no reason even though your religion suposedly teaches you to love one another but i guess that doesent apply to me. Im a pretty good looking person if i do say so myself abd thats not being conceded im told this on a regular basis. I don’t care for stupid people. Right now im liteni ng to a lady talk about loveing eachother but again that doesent apply to me. People are so quick to judge me and others who dont fit their cookie cutter standard that its mindblowing when they start talking about loving one anther. To each his own i guess.

P.S. i think im going to start writing my suday blog posts again. So much things to say but not outload because I’m aparently not aloud to have opinions or be considered a human being.

PandaQueen12

Life Update 

I know I haven’t been on this blog since last year but whatever it’s my life and I’ll do what I want. My year started pretty decent with meeting Rebecals(I call her that but her name is Rebecca) we used to hang out everyday sometimes I would even spend 3 days in a row at her house. I ment her at the Metrolux lux when I used to work there but I quit because that place is a shit hole and no one likes it there anyways. 5 people have quit since I left it’s like I started a revolution or something. Anyways recently Rebecca has been ignoring me and treating me like shit and the only time we hang out Is when I take her kid to school (did I mention that she was 34) now she’s just waiting for other people to turn 21 so she can ditch me for them. I should have known that she was only using me just like everyone else. Any who now I work at this comfort dental place as a sterilization technician. It’s boring and I bearly work but who cares plus I have to work with rebecals since she’s the one who got me the job. This week I got 55 hour and I get payed $10 an hour so I can’t wait for that pay check. Since I only have one job now I’m bored af so I might start exercising. Today is the start of my fast but I couldn’t really start because I had to take the Sacrament and eat bread and I drank orange juice to take me pills. I feel fat(which I probley am). One good thing is that in April I’m going to new York for 4 days with my dad. I’ve always wanted to go and now I finally get to. I’m so exited!! But before I go to the love of my life I’m going to lose 30-40 pounds so I can fit into small/extra small clothe. People say that I’m skinny but that’s not what I see when I look in the mirror. I got this app called hot or not and I’ve been talking to this guy named Christopher he’s so cute and we have so much in common too bad he live in Louisiana :(. Well that’s been my life as of late tata. 

-PandaQueen12

After hours

So today after my weekly 3 hours of torture I’m going to make some cashew milk. I’ve always wondered what it would taste like and now I’ll get to. Yesterday I made some cashew cheese spread and some almond cheese that is being fermented in the fridge as we speak. I also made some vegan rice pudding which is really good but I think it would be better with some fruit or berries. I thought being vegan would be harder but it’s really not that hard at all. Right now I’m in the church bathroom listening to music because I don’t want to go to class and I can’t wait to go home in an hour.thats all for now ta ta!

               -PandaQueen12

Right now

Today I woke up to the sound of my dog Kobe barking loudly at I assume my cat shadow. Not 2 hours after I wake up I’m just watching TV when the power went out. At first I was pissed because I was in the middle of a show but then I realized that this could be the zombie apocalypse. So I got up and started walking around the House with my hands shaped like a gun searching for zombies. I soon gave up and started listening to music on my iPod. About 45 minutes after the power went out it came back (thankfully). Right now I’m laying on my couch wrapped in two blankets watching TV with my annoying as fuck siblings. This day could not end any sooner. That’s all for now.
-PandaQueen12

Sundays

Sundays suck, every Sunday its the same. Wake up, get dressed, go to church ( or as i like to call it Hell), come home and stay home for the rest of the day being bored. you see in my family were not aloud to hang out with friends on Sundays  ( as if I have any in the first place) or go out. All you have for entertainment is the TV and my annoying siblings. Speaking of which my little sister punched me in the face today because i was trying to stop her form changing the channel on the TV so we got into an all out brawl and my dad had to separate us before i ripped her fucking head off. My sisters a fucking psychopath, I swear if i don’t sleep in a room with locked doors tonight shes going to kill me in my sleep. As you can tell my life is not all hunky dory its pretty boring actually. I spend most of my time by myself since i don’t have any friends. Wishing I was dead but I’m not a suicidal freak, getting hit by a truck would be lovely though. well that’s enough boring ranting for now.

-PandaQueen12