I honestly can’t stand living anymore at this point in time. I’m tired of living,breathing and just being here in general. I am so utterly done and upset with anything and everything I can’t even start to think about my life right now. To think that anyone would ever want to be with me for me is an ignorant and ridiculous thought. Everyone I have ever met has just used me for one thing or another. Even my own parents treat me like their personal servant. I get treated like I am the most stupid person in the room, people like to make me cry on purpose because they know how easy it is to make me upset and make me think that they don’t like me and or hate me. I am so sick of people treating me this way but i know I’ll never change and that I’ll always get used by someone.
I would do just about anything right now to get rid of the pain. I would take fucking ecstasy and suffer all of the consequences just to get rid of this hell fire that has been torturing me for the pass 40 minutes. Please help me I’ll do anything. I would call my mom right now to come pick me up but I don’t want to get behind and have a but load of homework. Right now I am seriously considering it. Kill me now because if this is what being a girl gets you I’d rather die or just sleep for the week that I have to suffer through this painful death of lives. This pain is unbearable. I feel like someone is just garbing a hold of my insides and twisting them mercilessly. You wouldn’t know by looking at my calm emotionless face but the pain I’m suffering through at this moment makes me want to scream out in pain and roll on the floor and cry until I can’t cry anymore. Sitting here in this chair makes me want to rip out my intestines and bleed to death. At least this torture would end if I did. Won’t you please end my suffering? Please.