Submissive 

Sometimes I sit down and think to myself am I really submissive? Sure I’m easily munipulated by others into doing things or I’ll feel bad but I just don’t know if I am. I don’t know if I started wanting to be submissive before or after reading 50 shades of grey it’s kind of all a blur. It would be really stupid if that was the reason that I think I am or want to be submissive. I know one thing for certain though and that is that I want to be controlled I crave it  actually. This is probley because my life has no control so I feel that if I was in a relationship I’d want whoever I was in the relationship with to take charge because I am the most indecisive person ever. Whenever I’m at the store with my mom and she asks me which cereal I think she should get I literally could care less and always say I don’t care. I read so much wattpad stories(you know the onesūüėŹ) and I get so sucked into them and wish that my life was like that but sadly it’s not. People who are possessive, obsessive or controlling just really intrigue and turn me on for some reason. When I say I like people who like having control I mean it in all aspects of themselves even when talking to someone online. I hate those people who say that they like to control yet let you walk all over them I mean if you were seriously controlling there’s no way in hell you would let me get away with pulling that shit. Well that’s what’s been on my mind latley.

                           -PandaQueen12

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Repressed

I am literally the most sexually repressed person ever. I am so horny all the time but there’s nothing I can do about it because I am such an antisocial freak. You might be thinking why not just go find someone online to roleplay with.. Here’s the thing that’s BORING as fuck. I want the real thing not some made up shit I have to pretend that I’m enjoying to make some stranger feel better. I sometimes wish I would just go out in the world and try to actually meet someone but then I remember humans are the most horrible species on this planet. I wish some alians from another planet would just come down and take me away with them so that I could live with them and learn their ways. Sure they might shove probes up my ass but that’s a little price to pay for getting a free pass off this miserable hunk of rock. Anyways back to the topic at hand… When you’ve seen as much porn as I have nothing fazes you. Two people could literally be having sex in front of me and I’d just tell them to move out of the way so I can see the TV. It’s weird that I know so much about sex and picture having it every single day of my life but would run the hell away if someone even offerd to take my virginity. Masterbation does the tick but really is just a chore after awhile. It’s not my fault I feel this way all the time but as Lady Gaga would say I was born this way. Anywhore off to pretend to be satisfied with this boring as hell life I have. Xoxo gossip girl just kidding(I might be a little obsessed with that show…just a little).

                             -PandaQueen12

             

Humans

As  I go through life and see the things I do I stand and wonder why humanity is such shit. The more I live and the more I see the more I want to die. People always judging you based on your appearance or sexuality just blows my mind. How others think that it is their place to judge you based on your life choices and the way you act. I have yet to see the day something bad doesn’t happen to innocent people just living their lives. Mabey this is the universes crude way of proving a point but who knows. For now I guess I’ll just wait for the day this world comes crashing down on humanity and its disgusting ways.

                       -PandaQueen12

Rings

So I just got to thinking about my future and marriage. I know I’m never going to get married but if a guy was ever to propose to me and pulls out a ring I would say no right on the spot because 1) never going to get married 2) why the hell do you need a ring to propose in the first place? You could use that money for so many other things that are actually important. What I don’t understand is why guys think that they need to have a material thing in order show someone you love them. In reality society just thinks it’s the norm that you need a ring for proposing. I hate the very thought of that. If you love someone just show it you don’t need material things to do it.

-PandaQueen12
P.S. Happy Valentines Day‚̧ԳŹ

Mascots

I am legit afraid of mascots. So afraid that once when I was little and my family went to a basketball game one came near me and I started bawling my eyes out until he went away. I don’t know where this fear came from but every time I see one somewhere I run in the other direction. Even now being a sophomore in high school I am deathly afraid of them. The other day I was walking into the cafeteria and I saw a Bigfoot mascot and I almost screamed. I don’t have nightmares ever (thank goodness) but if I did I know they would be in them.

-PandaQueen12