So I’ve been kind of obsessed with the idea of having an experience with an Incubus demon. At my last house I was so obsessed that I did a ritual to summon one every night for 3 or 4 days. I think it worked because I kept feeling like someone was touching me when I was asleep or that there was a cat at the end of my bed(I read somewhere that is a sign that they are there). My door was closed so I know that it was not my cat or anyone else.The first time I ever had an experience I wrote it down in my notes, here it is.
Last night around 5:50am or so I think an incubus came to me and licked my ear several times. At first I thought it was my cat but then I opened my eyes and saw wings. Then he left. I tried to keep my eyes closed but I wanted to see him. I was scared. I hope he comes again tomorrow night, I hope I won’t be scared then.
Every since that experience I have been obsessed and long for another one. When I moved from my old house to my new one I thought that they would follow me but they didn’t. I searched online and it said that they don’t follow you so I began to try to summon one again. The first time it Dident work because I didn’t use my birth name so I tried again last night and I don’t know if it worked. This is another experience I think
Last night I think I had a dream that I was laying down on the floor sleeping with my fan as usual and then I felt a pressure on my back like someone was laying next to me but I held still because this was like a dream come true. So I was laying there with this pressure on my back and they took there hand a put it over my mouth for a minute but I couldn’t breath so I moved it. Then suddenly I felt pleasure down there. They they started moving in and out and it felt so good I started to moan after a while they stopped and left. I honestly think that it was an incubus and it was the most awesome experience I have had with one yet. Best day ever!!😊☺️😁
You can see that my obsession could not be more real. I really hope that it works this time and that I actually summoned one. I know some people(cough cough religious people) might think that I am stupid for wanting to have an incubus visit me but to those people I say why the fuck do you care this is my life not yours so get over it. Anyways I’ll keep you updated if it works tata!
I am literally the most sexually repressed person ever. I am so horny all the time but there’s nothing I can do about it because I am such an antisocial freak. You might be thinking why not just go find someone online to roleplay with.. Here’s the thing that’s BORING as fuck. I want the real thing not some made up shit I have to pretend that I’m enjoying to make some stranger feel better. I sometimes wish I would just go out in the world and try to actually meet someone but then I remember humans are the most horrible species on this planet. I wish some alians from another planet would just come down and take me away with them so that I could live with them and learn their ways. Sure they might shove probes up my ass but that’s a little price to pay for getting a free pass off this miserable hunk of rock. Anyways back to the topic at hand… When you’ve seen as much porn as I have nothing fazes you. Two people could literally be having sex in front of me and I’d just tell them to move out of the way so I can see the TV. It’s weird that I know so much about sex and picture having it every single day of my life but would run the hell away if someone even offerd to take my virginity. Masterbation does the tick but really is just a chore after awhile. It’s not my fault I feel this way all the time but as Lady Gaga would say I was born this way. Anywhore off to pretend to be satisfied with this boring as hell life I have. Xoxo gossip girl just kidding(I might be a little obsessed with that show…just a little).
As I go through life and see the things I do I stand and wonder why humanity is such shit. The more I live and the more I see the more I want to die. People always judging you based on your appearance or sexuality just blows my mind. How others think that it is their place to judge you based on your life choices and the way you act. I have yet to see the day something bad doesn’t happen to innocent people just living their lives. Mabey this is the universes crude way of proving a point but who knows. For now I guess I’ll just wait for the day this world comes crashing down on humanity and its disgusting ways.
Moving sucks especially to a completely new state where you don’t know where anything is or who anyone is. But for an anti-social freak like me you might as well put me up on a stage with everyone staring at me and tell me to give a speech. That’s just what its like for me. I’m now a junior in highschool but like hell im going to a pubic school in a new state. After various tactics and strategies I finally got my parents to homeschool me. Praise the lord Jesus Christ! That was the best thing ever. So while everyone else has already started school last week I get to start school on Friday. Which is awesome because I get to sleep in every single day while my other siblings have to get up at 6 in the morning to get ready for school. Life is great life is grand!
Have you ever felt like you were so alone that you were invisible? So ignored that you thought no one could see you? That’s how I feel everyday. I roam around the hallways of school looking at everyone enjoying themselves with their friends laughing and smiling and I just die Inside knowing that that will never be me.
Days like today are typical for me. Nothing going on, me being alone and wishing that there was something more to life then this. Sitting on the couch pretending to watch television when really all I want to be doing is sleeping or be outside having an adventure of some sort as to fill the endless void that is my boredom. I wish I had something to do anything would be fine but that would make my life enjoyable and no one wants that. So I’ll just spend today like I spend any other day, wishing for it to be over.
I am legit afraid of mascots. So afraid that once when I was little and my family went to a basketball game one came near me and I started bawling my eyes out until he went away. I don’t know where this fear came from but every time I see one somewhere I run in the other direction. Even now being a sophomore in high school I am deathly afraid of them. The other day I was walking into the cafeteria and I saw a Bigfoot mascot and I almost screamed. I don’t have nightmares ever (thank goodness) but if I did I know they would be in them.